Judgment Day

Thats what I feel like today was. I am so freaking exhausted, and all because of internet drama. I won't go into the details, but a forum I visit daily that is full of a lot of people I respect, turned on me today because of my blog entry that made it sound like I am going to euthanize Ellie at the end of the month because she is too expensive and I am to lazy to continue to care for her.

Anyone who knows me, knows that lazy is not my style. I always said from the beginning that should my ultimate goal of rehabbing and rehoming Ellie did not go through the way I hoped, that I would do the next best thing and euthanize her. I basically got the response on there that I should have left Ellie in the kill pen if all I was going to do was give her two good months and euthanize her.

Anyone see something wrong with that picture? I was actually compared to a hoarder today. I was absolutely LIVID when I read that. I was told that I should have let someone else get Ellie. That I had misled people to think that I was going to get her, rehab her and keep her forever. That is not the case, I don't believe ANYONE who donated to Ellie's cause thought that I was going to keep her forever. I also don't believe that anyone ever thought that euthanization was never an option.

This is just a small portion of the drama that I was subjected to today. I'd like to thank those who took the time to remind me why I am doing this. To help me calm down enough to see that these people had no right to judge me the way they had. Just because I can't retire Ellie myself, does not mean that I have not done right by her. One way or another she will get the end she deserves, whether it be the perfect retirement home where she can enjoy a pasture or turnout with grass and maybe a friend, or a nice hot bowl of bran mash and a peaceful, dignified end that I think she deserves when the time comes.

I know that I have done, and am doing right by Ellie. The people who know me, and have met Ellie know that I am doing right by Ellie. If you disagree, so be it. If you think that it should be done any other way, then do it.